Well lets see how this year has gone so far. Well I got pulled out of the feds where I was a TFO to sit in patrol on midnight's for six months. I then make it to the day shift and some sleep last month. I went to the dentist to have a cavity re-filled and find to my pleasant surprise, that I need full reconstruction because I have magically ground off the inside ring of my teeth (eight caps, full rebuild) to the tune of $15,000. Oh did I say when I was pulled back that my salary went down $20,000? I went to grab a side job and its looking like the idea situation it would create will not get done because the side job is being weird about the side job paperwork which is an industry standard that my dept uses. So that's out. I am my kids cross country coach and two parents went to the principle and insisted that they run the 3rd and 4th graders then blew a fit when I was not coaching them at a meet and of course not one person spoke to me about it. I was planning on going back to school to receive my terminal degree but my union approached me and asked me not to put in for departmental reimbursement because we are in contract negotiations and the city as not even addressed that provision yet (why remind them of that). My kids will not practice their stinking piano. My ebay stuff will not sell. Etc. Etc.
All that to say, I really do not have any problems. I have gainful employment in today's economy. There are no serious health concerns for the family. The family finances are stable and not in the red. But I let the stresses in life ground me to a stop. I most have spent, hiding from my current situation, eighty hours playing Batman: Arkham City (great game but not the point)
God is always in control and God is always good. God just has a master plan that does not necessarily take into account my love for comfort and positive job growth.
This I know in my head but right now I do not feel it in my heart. So this is where faith bridges the gap, I trust in his promises and will go where he sends me. I just know that he is not currently sending me to my den's couch for eighty hours at a time.
Psalm 119:140
Your promises have been thoroughly tested, and your servant loves them.
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